A little bit about me, I remember back in 2021 while the pandemic was coming to an end and everyone was out and about, and so was I periodically, but so much was changing for me. I had recent lost my grandma who I was extremely close to, almost like a second mom to me, then a few months later I and my family were even more devastated as I had lost my dad. Not to mention, a two weeks prior to I lost my temp job. Everything started spiraling out of control for me.
Months go by and things start to pick up after a few months but more tragedy strikes as I lose my car and end up in a car accident in someone else’s. Nothing seemed to go right for me and I ended up in the hospital. Constant panic attacks, unsure of where I was, it kept getting worse. Two years of being in a downward spiral that I nearly died but somehow managed to come out of with the help of only my mother as my dad side abandoned me. I was alone, scared, afraid for me and the people around me. I started feeling unsafe in my own skin. Two years passed like this but through some amazing people I came across and a lay tragedy of almost hurting the person that was trying to help me deeply. I somehow managed to pull myself out of my spiral and get back into the world.
Within the year 2023 My thoughts started clearing, I started back listening to my binaural beats, and getting into hobbies, then I came across an amazing guy who I started dating who saw me at my worse and still said I like you. I got a new job back, saved money for a new car and a year later got my own place then started writing. Writing about my knowledge, my strength, my power, and what life has taught me over the last four years and so forth to help people that are struggling mentally just like me.
So, I became a writer, writing blogs on the way I see and understand the world, what I have to offer it and how I can give back to it because of the good people that came along and helped me on my journey. I saw a new light, a new way to shine and being awareness to people that are different and see the world from fresh eyes.
You never know what life will throw at you, or where it’s going to take you, and it’s okay as to where you have been. Life is a choice, and choose to live, to live in a way that makes me fulfilled and to help others to the same, to overcome those dark nights. And to whoever this story might help, you are not alone. I see you and you are cared for. Good luck out there and keep going.
-Signed Kaymarie
Kaymarie 